So I stopped writing because I felt like I was repeating myself. I don't know if that's accurate or not but I felt it and had this feeling that the same thoughts were running through my head over and over again. I guess that's the cycle of it all though. Thinking the same thoughts over and over again. I also stopped writing for me, and started writing for everyone else, and that never works. Well it works for a while but you start censoring your thoughts. Plus I felt like no one was reading it, which is stupid because again I'm not writing this for others. It was something to lay out my thoughts, pick through and change the beliefs - the added bonus was that maybe someone or some people would understand as well. On the positive, crossfit is going really well. I didn't go when I was sick, but as soon as I was able to I went back. I can feel the strength building already. Going up the stairs feels easier, picking up the kids and anything that requires bending down or